Let me just ask you some important penis questions about if it just hangs there or how its a thing. They confuse me sometimes and I catch myself staring there.
—You Are My Sunshine
That last post was supposed to say dick not duck but I guess you shouldn’t be a duck either they’re only cute when they’re babies and then after that they’re viscous
They call me coffee cuz I grind so fine
They call me coffee I keep you up past 2 am
They call me coffee because I’m really bitter and most people don’t like me without changing some aspect of what I am
My sister now keeps asking if I’m bondaging as a joke meaning binding. Not meanly. Making fun of herself. I love her
I have the feeling of butterflies in my stomach but they’re probably moths and bats and trapped spirits
I want to come out to my parents. And I’m so conflicted with it. I’m so unhappy. I’m going to tell my doctor gender stuff next week again and try to get help for it. I feel like of I come out I may risk my living situation or at least the respect of my parents. I don’t really want to come out ever actually unless to friends I trust and people I am intimate with. Its just that I’m pretty sure I need to get top surgery of some sort. Binding makes me dizzy because I’m unhealthy. And ive been so damn dysphoric lately. My binder isn’t even that tight. Just as tight as a sports bra and doesn’t get me completely flat. But I can’t bind always due to my health. I just feel like top surgery is something I need. And I can’t just get a major surgery with my parents not knowing. My sister even noticed I was binding yesterday. She didn’t give a shit though but my parents would. I just either need to get my like breast reduction or like full top surgery. I don’t have much of boobs so breast reduction may not be possible. And I told my doctor once before and she said shit like my gender may not be recognised and then it would cost a lot. But I have dysphoria and feel its medically necessary so I am going to talk to my doctor again. I just don’t want to live anymore so I’m going to try to make some changes.
My sister noticed I had no boobs today and then she asked if I was doing bondage stuff with my boobs like adam from degrassi. And her use of the term bondage instead of binding just made me laugh. But she was all nice because adam was in degrassi and she is familiar with trans stuff